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Thursday, October 16, 2008

don't look back in anger

hello fellow

got back results today...

h2 math - D (12.5)
h2 econs - S (5.0)
h2 chem - S (5.0)
h1 lit - E (5.0)
h1 gp - C (7.5)

add them altogether and we've got 35 rank points on the dot which also means ive been promoted. let's just ignore the fact that its barely and focus on the fact that i get to spend next year slogging away on a levels. yay! no seriously, YAY! the holidays are going to spent on finding a chem tutor and more mugging for next year's january assessments. im quite glad i can say that. i can't believe it actually, the whole day i was caught in a limbo every time we got back our grades. first off, for chem, even though i was 3rd lowest in class, i got 5 rank points which i really feel is a godsend (not in the literal sense). i mean i got a U for the main paper, which just goes to show class tests are really important. and so are assignments where you can mull over slowly in the comfort of your air-con room.

though it seems that i got 35 rank points with my own ability *snorts* i really think that the teachers were dispensing marks out leniently enough (chem) so that we can move up a grade and get those extra points after adding the other crap. nonetheless i am flipping kangaroo happy because...well...you know why...its the same reason for everyone *sheepish*.

in my head i have this analogy. we're all traveling on this vast sea (lit student, bear with me...). some of us are on a speed boat where we can zip past the rest (scholars, muggers). these people don't really need to aim for 35 rank points. they're aiming for 50 rank points or more because its a matter of pride. some of us are in a big cruise where we can idle away comfortably and yet still make it to the destination (naturally smart, learn it once its enough to put you ahead of the rest). they don't really need to aim for anything or put any formal thought into it. it just happens easily for them. some of us in a little sampan, using a stick to row. sampaners aim for 35 rank points on the dot. they don't ask for much, just enough to see them through their immediate needs. when storms come, the sampan will probably sink. and finally, there are those of us are on a raft. the raft is very fragile and need not require storms to unravel it. just light drizzle or a fatso will do. these are conditional promos people, they aim for 28 rank points so that they have a fair chance of getting on a sampan at least. i wish all my sampan and raft comrades the best.

hope for the awsome. prepare for the fucked. even if you don't make it, think of it as a delay to NS and an opportunity to do it right the next time around. just try not to slump into depression and shit.