monumental virgin

hello

has it really been this long since my last post? well i guess this post marks my return... or not. depending on how i nteresting my life is... well. make that how interesting my life sounds.

ive got a new laptop. since im not the one paying for it, it isn't a mac like i had hoped.

...now for some gossip on my painfully dull existence. assuming only die hard fans of my life will continue visiting this site after i've been dormant for so long... i shall reveal one of my many embarrassing incidences that i have lived through since my last slew of declarations (confessions). i fell in love.

or fell in love the only way i knew how. i remember when i was 11 and i made a handmade birthday card for the love of my life (or so i thought). inside was a rather lame poem... the sort where the letters of his name are acronyms for qualities i liked about him. yeah you can stop snickering now, im sure you've had moments in your life where you look back and seem quite small and juvenile to yourself. anyways, the point im trying to make is that i haven't changed a single bit. i am still 11 when it comes to my experiences in love and subsequently my reactions to it. its quite sad to admit but i am, in fact, quite unaware of what love is.

not that im some sort of desperate virgin(!!) but as i approach 19 and leave behind a more tender age of 18, it is worrying that my ideas of love have yet to mature. i know tons about sex and relationship mindgames and all that stuff you can learn for free on the internet, movies and music but i am sad to day that my lack of life experience leaves love a rather foreign concept.

as a result i began (and ended) a painful infatuation with a guy i know nothing about. not even his name, only the interval he left in between each shave and his penchant for jane austen. it was an infatuation that cost me a considerable fortune. many girls have lost much more, but knowing that i have moved on entirely with nothing more than a memory of that painful experience is disappointing. i did nothing and hence, i learnt nothing. i am, indeed, still a child, still 11 years old, taking the long route home to pass by the bus stop and wave to my one time crush waiting for his 985 bus.

ah well, i guess i shall wait for that one special asshole just made to come around and break my heart. maybe then i will learn.

it was my day off today. it was wonderful. my nails are a funky gold and i finally got to eat a cadbury fruit and nut bar today. if i continue to get around to blogging, i think i might devulge some work crap that's going on... hopefully i don't get sued. til next time.

ps: if you saw sawyer, you'd fall instantly in love with him.




pps: im talking about my laptop.

this is hardcore

DOES ANYBODY WATCH DEXTER????

I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE THEY ENDED IT LIKE THAT!!

aaaargh cant wait for next season. so frustrating!!

i feel like i should go read the damn books instead of waiting an entire year for it to start up again. bleagh. whatever.

tomorrow is lunch with TJ crowd, friday is shopping and drinks with D. saturday is meet the grandparents and first theory lesson for bike. sunday is church... haha. did you fall for that one?? sunday shall be cycling i think.

in other news, signed on with a recruit company. might get a job soon heh heh. and when that happens i shall become a money making machine. niceeeee.

applications for uni+learning to cook+planning for india+preparations for sister's arrival+video with mikshake all have yet to be begun. busy busy busy and totally loving it. when else do you get to do only the things you like and nothing else? even when i have nothing to do i can just pick up some stuff and go swimming. life is good right now. until results come out and sucks away all this happiness, i shall spend my days like this...

gotta go get showered and dressed for tonight. meanwhile im in love with this song! its so dark and classy, it makes me quiver with happiness and illusions of...none of your business. haha its the sort of song you get you cherry popped to, if anybody needs suggestions. its Pulp, this is hardcore. which they obviously are.



toodles guys.

star guitar

hey guys

back from vietnam. best time of my life. your greed for pictures shall be satisfied on facebook/here when i choose to stop being lazy.

if you asked for souvineres (i shall spell it however i want], you shall definitely get them if/when i see you. if you never asked for any, then it was subject to budget and my own thoughtfulness... you can stop hoping right there.

time to plan for india trip. around march to april. this time its competely solo, based on my own organisation and 75% paid for by myself - i am a poor student after all. i shall begin my job hunting tomorrow after a trip to the driving centre.

no more 4 star hotels and kid sister for company. india is going to be hardcore now that i know what im in for. hardcore i tell you.

oh yeah, now that im back, who wants to get sloshed??

runaway

hey bitches

got back from malaysia yesterday. leaving for vietnam on sunday. everyone's mad that im going on my own. especially granny. apparently having vagina doesn't qualify you to step out of the country solo... or so im told. be back soon (possibly after getting raped.)

laptop's wonky. using six year old tablet pc. switching between her and the ancient IBM, both of which are seriously fucked up. dad's hinting that i get a job and pay for it myself. greenlight for macbook? heh.

currently using my savings to pay for bike license. running low. shall seek empoyment soon.,

pictures when i find a source to upload on.

bad mood. wanna be back on beach jet ski-ing.

adios amigos